Going to this "school" was the best decision I had ever made so far. We were given a syllabus and told that we could work as fast or as slow as we wanted to. Well, knowing that I had a baby on the way within a few months, I decided to hurry through the second semester of tenth grade (which I had terribly failed due to my sexcapades to the beach everyday) and got through the first semester of eleventh grade before my daughter was born in February.
Seeing that I was working so fast through High School, our counselor thought she better get together with me and start discussing my future. We discussed my likes and dislikes and I told her that I really wanted to do something in the medical field. I had always wanted to be some sort of doctor, but with having a baby, I decided to settle for becoming a Registered Nurse and go for a Master's in that. Since I am fluently bi-lingual, I saw great opportunities for myself. The counselor and I started researching nursing programs and found one at a school that was seven hours away.
We discussed housing and sitting while I went to school. Being a minority, and a single parent, she was able to find grants that would pay for school, day-care, rent, books, transportation and anything else I would need for the entire time it would take me to graduate. I was excited!!! Things were finally looking up for me and my teen-pregnancy had turned into just a blip that would end up positively.....or so I thought.
Little did I know that when my counselor had a meeting with my mom, my mother would not let me sign up for a school "so far away". I was a brand new mother. I'd kill the baby. I didn't know the first thing about caring for myself let alone a child far from her ever-controlling eye.
Unfortunately, I had just turned seventeen and needed my parents permission to be able to go away to college. So, there went my Nursing School dreams and here I sit working in an office sixteen years, a husband and two additional kids later. I think this was her way of making me pay for not being able to kick me out of the house when she found out I was pregnant. Hopefully someday, I will be able to fulfill my dream of becoming a Registered Nurse with a Masters. One can only dream...
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